When You Miss Who You Used To Be

There's a version of you
from ten years ago
you secretly miss.

Not because they had more money,
or better opportunities,
but because they had something
you're not sure you still have:

Uncomplicated joy.
Reckless hope.
Trust that hadn't yet been betrayed.

Here's the strange mercy:

You're not called to go back.
You're called to become someone new
who carries wisdom and softness.

That means:

• Learning how to hope with your eyes open.
• Choosing tenderness without pretending you weren't hurt.
• Letting God heal what experience has armoured.

You don't need to resurrect the old you.
You need to meet the healed you.
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Tonight:

• Write down three things you miss about that earlier version of you.
• Ask which of them were naivety
• and which were genuine virtues.
• Ask God to restore the virtues
• without the blindness.

You're not regressing by wanting softness back.
You're refusing to let pain be the final architect of your personality.